Thoughts...

Before I go and do crazy things...


There were a lot who offered to listen if ever I'd need someone to talk to, but after losing you, I don't think someone out there understands me like you do, Seb. God, I miss you a lot in times like this. Everything just feels so heavy. I feel so worthless. I feel like I am the forgotten one, the biggest disappointment there is. You were there to lift me up before, whenever I felt like this. Now, I don't have anyone with me. And it feels so painful and I feel so crazy because the only thing that would come up in my head is to just end everything. And I'm afraid I'd resort to cutting again. But it makes it feel less heavy in the chest. What do I do? I miss you, Seb. I wish I can still talk to you, you know?