my first entry...

I really don't know what to write about right now. I guess I'd just blabber anything that goes into mind. Hmmm... Where should I start? Oh, right!

I actually miss writing stories. If there's one thing that could make me forget the things that bothered me, that's when I was in front of my PC, with a notepad on and succumbing into the world of my own.

That's what I love about writing... I can decide the flow of the story, I know what to do and how to resolve the conflict in the story. In my own world, I can have the perfect man and the perfect me! In that world, I can be happy, I can always get my happy-ending.

The truth of the matter is, I badly want to back to writing again. But I know better! I am in a situation where I don't know where to go and how to start my life anew. 'Cause if I'd write a story again, I might just want to live there and not bother about what's really going on around me. I don't want to live in fantasies anymore. That was the biggest mistake I did and I am never gonna allow to commit the same bad stuffs that already happened to me.

I just want to live my life, the way I had been doing before. I'm already twenty-four. It is time for me to act my age. I don't want people telling me what to do, what's right and what's wrong because they think I can't handle things in life. I'd be proving tjem that I am now a lady and can certainly take care of myself.

"the childish girl" now signing off! :)